Last Of My Letters

Over time I've felt & wrote letters of love to my unknown lover
As I've hid my feelings to myself
but not to the world
I've spoke through my actions & confused myself
I've grown to love & hurt myself
Now I remain here to myself...
Played a fool & thought it'll work itself out..
Thought I'd pray for better in hopes to receive you...
What's lost never was...but what's ever to be gained was more than enough...
your touch, your smile, your walk....
what's not to love or keep my open...
whats not to make me feel this pain..of lost...
but smile in memories as I hear your name..
what's not to help me grow & even learn...as time has come for you to go..
I've moved on & you've grow close...to your past..
Not wanting you to go there I must let go..
because it's I that can't control your emotions but you that has them and for that I must let you live & let go.......
but i'll always consider you to be my most precious lover even if you'll never know

Estoy Enamorada

I plan to be in tune with the one

That One...Whom I'm...

Intwined with through my...

Time & My speech..

Everything that makes me...Me

My heart as it bleeds in the pain...

The pain you've showed me..

My heart which leads my mind to the thought that...

Only love can lead it to think..

Your here (for now) but will you stay? Will you leave? Or is this an illusion..

My mind shouts..As the brain cells delivers that message to my mouth..

I'm gone for now in the paradise I've built for myself..

Through the image of your face, the words you've recited, & those beloved thoughts you've instilled within me...By your actions & words..

You've become..Me 

My love..Through the things I love..

Are Afraid to become & Most of all power that often moves me to feel what I believe..

Strength, Beauty, Wisdom, & Power you bestow over me, but has that come only through your imagery..

Pond reaching my orgasm as i've come down my thought now lingers..

Sending me back to reality..Are you my dream or are you really here..

The worlds lead me to believe that.. 

That your going to ruin me..

Seeing that day by day love has proved itself to be nonexistent through the hatred in mankind & anger that tends to lie between both your neighbor & I..

But with one look...

That look into your eyes...I'd think...

I'd finally found happiness...

Leaving me to pray & hope your feelings don't fail me wrong..

Especially before I surrender to you those words..

ESTOY ENAMORADA...

My Nightmare

Scared to sleep I fear the night that dream come true

That dream I've been having for days & days

That dream that just will not go away 

The same dream that will be my living nightmare

And the one that makes my stomach....

You fill it in...

The light...The truth...And the mystery...

Wants me to finish this...

Yet I can't for..thinking of that dream

Just makes me feel too sick

Thoughts of Poetry

Poetry is da thought that moves through ur body..da soul dat lifts ur spirit.....its da wonders of life and desires of man....poetry is what you make it...yet always in rhythm...its love dat fills da heart....its my music..my dreams..my actions..my everything...for it teaches knowledge to da unknown...brings variety to da close minded...it speaks to you...it heals you...appreciates you and loves you...poetry is life which will never die but grow stronger day by day...

 

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Lately my eyes have felt heavy

Yet I have no courage to say Why 

Or even How...I've Gotten to this point 

But I'm Here

Through my mistakes and my faults

It's just this time it wasn't Me

Yet...It was me, but intentionally

And the reason I feel 

Was due to my actions

See..I let it go to far even tho I knew it was wrong

I began to lie to myself and look for a reason to make it right 

Though..I knew after all I said before

My actions have made me contradict myself & become

What I once thought I could never be & again what once was

Naive, Soft, & a Hypocrite...in the eyes of others

So with my mistake came my lesson..the second time around

A lesson i'll neva forget and one that will eva haunt me

One I wish to go away, but yet I kno it wouldn't

And now this lesson has left me lost, embarrassed, and afraid 

Of my future...my once close friend...and my pride

Is He Ashamed??

So Now...

He says he loves me

And says he cares

Over the phone..

He texts me at day

And of course thru all of night

When we're alone...

He calls me his beloved baby

And kisses all over

Yet once in public..

He looks me over

And walks right by

So Now...

All that runs through my mind is why??

** This poem is not a personal poem and does not speak about anyone in particular.  It can go for both females and males as it speaks on being ashamed of the person you are with or whatever relationship it maybe.  I felt as if there are many times people act different towards the person they are with or messing with in public then they do when the two are alone. Personally I will say that I sometimes may ask "a certain way" because I don't want everyone in my business, yet I'm not talkin exactly about that I'm talkin more so about people that really say they are feelin sumthin for someone & then act another way when others are around...What's Your Reason For That exactly?? Why say you feel a certain way and act the other?? And let's say you do really care for that person what's to happen once they are tired of the way you've been acting and leave you??....**

 p.s. don't be ashamed and if you are then you worry about what ppl think a bit too much signed....NonChalant Neya..Babes

Hidden Secrets..No Guys It's Not A Poem but Somethin I've Been Thinking About

Throughout life we all have secrets. Some worst then others & others not so bad..but at times its these secrets that define who we truly are. Whether we are genuinely good inside or whether we're the worst person known to man. Yet no matter what the secret maybe; it often becomes something which alters our emotions & leads us to make mistakes or better yet do something no one should ever know about until that big secret comes out..Be it shared with a few or only within you..Certain secrets can become harmful & may secretly be eating you alive. But there are others that tend to make some feel good. Well in my eyes the best secret can equal the sweetest gift until that secret becomes your nightmare..But if you'd ever just stopped and thought most of us ourselves are secrets..Secrets to each other..Some secrets we may hate more then love..My secrets...well that's another topic that I won't get into..Yet just now sitting and thinking of what a secret can do once exposed...WOW..Type Craze..I may now just hate dem esp. some of mines..but would you say that a secret kept within oneself is just as bad or should it come out??Are those the most dangerous seeing that communication is one tends to help us over come certain situations?? and no i'm not talking about over the head dramatic secrets such as u murdered sum1 but like i regular secret one may have..Or would you say all secrets are healthy and give ppl an opportunity to keep their business to themselves? Wat do u think about my theory on secrets....