My Apology

 Time & time again i've felt this way 

Thing is I never listened to myself

Now I see what it comes to 

And also the lessons that have been taught 

For not listening, thinking with feelings, & not the brain

I chose to ignore 

Knowing I was wrong

I wanted to be right

Showing myself that you could at times do me...

In a bad way

Seeing that I should know 

What's good for my well being

But not knowing & believing that 

You were part of me 

My heart says try & My body says do

So temptation begins to touch

And my body gets numb

As my legs shake & I feel a quiver

That's when I believe I was right

And then know you were 

Yet indeed wrong

But it's not done

That ooo so good feeling & devious yet lusty look on my face thinks it then knows it all 

My brain then says "Aye..That was fulfilling"

And my body continues to quiver

As I have reminisced on the moment and forgotten about you

With it all feeling so right how could you blame me

See it was that curious itch that helped me make up my mind

Yet not thinkin of what you've told me

I swear I couldn't help, but ignore

And I must admit 

For the moment it was the best thing I've ever felt

For the moment it was my heaven on earth

And for the moment it was an undiscovered mistake

Little did I know that you would soon come back & haunt me

My wrong doing couldn't help, but make me cry especially when you told me knew of those acts

Not one or two, but all

That lead me to where I am now

So this is my apology

I'm Sorry

Very sorry I didn't listen to you

And know I'm coping with my mistakes & trying to get back to you

That's why everytime you speak I listen & remember

Both of what I've done & what I've been told....

A Women's Intuition Is One Of Gold